Change Your Focus
HYPERFOCUSED. I can’t see. I wasn’t born with 20/20 vision and it is likely something I will never experience until I reach heaven. I have an astigmatism and have always seen the world through blurry eyes since the age of 3 or 4. This reality has been emotionally bothersome for me throughout the years. I would often question God as to why I had to wear “big” glasses? Why couldn’t I have perfect vision like some of my friends? Why couldn’t I afford Lasik surgery? Why could I not swim and see clearly underwater?
I never received a direct answer to these questions, but instead I had to get to the point of accepting the way I was designed. I actually felt sad and angry when our son was diagnosed with an astigmatism at the age of 2. I blamed myself for passing along this “bad” trait and dreaded having to support him through navigating sports with glasses, learning to put a little piece of plastic in his eye daily, buying countless bottles of eye solution and eye drops, itching his way through allergy season, and attempting to read comfortably in bed with glasses. To some, it’s not that big of a deal, but for me, I was hyperfocused on the disadvantages of not having perfect vision.
FOCUSED. I just turned 39 years old. My self-image is stronger than ever. Why? Because I decided to refocus my attention on the positive characteristics about myself and how God is using me to serve others, glasses and all! I am beautiful, I am strong. I am courageous. I am a world changer and spirit breaker. I inspire. I motivate. There is no one in the world quite like me. Just like in my story, many of us often get hyper-focused on our mess ups, hang ups, and screw ups, taking our eyes off of what we actually have to offer.
Focus requires more than just changing the lens but it requires vision, spiritual vision. If you always saw the world through your natural eyes, you would miss opportunities to serve and be served. You will only see the characteristics that make you invaluable and unimportant. Nevertheless, when you see the world through spiritual eyes, you have the ability to see beyond yourself into the realm of how you actually fit into the world. Having a clear vision of you, produces a wholeness and completeness that defines your purpose.
Changing your focus reveals your true value. What’s your worth?